Saturday, May 07, 2005

read Today. and it was abt Dr Wee. he passed away, holding his wife hand.
how touching. probably thats the most beautiful thing in the world, having your
loved ones by your side .

i came across this sentence ' the measure of a good man is the number of the people who take the trouble to show up at his wake.'
this make me think of Mister MSJ, and it reminded me of the situation during his wake.
he's only 15, or rather 16. and many many people were there. i feel happy for him and i hope that he knows that we were all there to send him off, and that we love him. those who were not there loved him too.

i opened my msg inbox and saw Mister KaieLoon's msg, asking us to take care and stuff like that.
hmm. . its been a 2 years, i think, since he left us. i miss miss miss him lots man.
i've no idea how to contact him again cos' i think he changed num, once again. haha.
haix. i truly hope that he'll come back soon.. goodblesshim* no matter where he is.

theres so much problems. i donno why and i cant help.
i feel so helpless. feel so pekchek.
what are friends for? can anyone tell me?
i donno . i seriously dont know. did i do my part as a friend? i donno.
did i cause more trouble instead of help? i donno. so many things. i dont know how am i suppose to help my friends. can anyone tell me how? i look at cindy, i feel guilty.
i look at jiawen and yuting, i'm loss for words. i look at karinda, i've nthing to say to her.
i look at waikit, i feel helpless. i look at everyone, i feel useless.
what exactly is the problem? i dont know. can someone nice and kindhearted knock some sense into me? am i asking for troublE? i try to be like i've no problem and try to be happy and try not to show attitude. i tried. seriously. and i'm tired.
can anyone wake me up?! can anyone slap me? ! can anyone help me?
can anyone love me?
ridiculous girl , you must think . but listen up, i dont give a damn.
i'm writing out all my frustrations and if you're offended, i'm sorry. truly sorry.
if you're here to mock at my friends and i, please get your ass out.